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I've come to see that we--

                                                           not just me,

                                                                      you, too,

just move from one room to another

sometimes a step

sometimes a walk

sometimes a drive

sometimes a flight
sometimes a fight

one room to another

so we can watch things that aren't real

listen to people we can't talk to

do things we could have just as easily done

in our own rooms

and I've begun to wonder

why I shouldn't just stay in my own room.

I can entertain myself.

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The worst thing you can do is to love somebody.  
https://www.tumblr.com/blog/phonynoam

You know what love is?  It's a temporary state of vulnerability in which you reach out to someone in an attempt to convince yourself that your life is not futile, that you are not worthless, that your every action is not inane, and that there is some purpose to your drawing breath in this world.  It is a replacement for God.  If there actually were a God, there would be no concept of love, because we would each be complete in ourselves. We would need no mortar to hold together the dead bricks of our existence.  Love is a temporary state because once we are convinced that we are loved, we feel fulfilled, and thus we no longer need to be loved.  

It is precisely like the appetite for food. When we are hungry, we seek out the most appealing food. If we find none, our criteria becomes less stringent.  If our hunger persists beyond a certain point, any food, even that which we would previously have found disgusting, becomes acceptable.  Once we have eaten, however, we immediately become more fastidious about our choices, rejecting that which  previously nourished us.  It is as impossible to maintain a state of being in love as it is to maintain a state of hunger.  Hunger is either satisfied, thus ending the state, or the one who hungers dies . . . thus ending the state.  

If one is kept at a very low level of caloric intake, close to starvation, hunger--Iove--could persist for an extended period of time,  but sooner or later the hungerer either dies or happens upon a better source of nutrition.