Thursday, July 31, 2025

DDR: The Yage Letters by William S. Burroughs & Allen Ginsberg

 I don't feel like I'm finished with William S. Burroughs yet. And although it isn't his third book, The Yage Letters is the third book in The Yage Trilogy. (Or perhaps more properly The Naked Lunch Trilogy. "...the trilogy to which, in late 1953, Burroughs originally applied the title “Naked Lunch” — texts published separately as: Junky, Queer, and The Yage Letters." https://realitystudio.org/scholarship/confusions-masterpiece/  But that would be confusing, so Yage it is.) Unfortunately, neither the library nor Libby nor hoopla had a copy of it. Internet Archive had this


...but they also showed me this:


Note the Borrow Unavailable. Hmmm. 

Yage is listed as having 84 pages, Redux 184. That's a big difference. 

And now it's time for...A Closer Look.

So yeah...I'm wanting Redux. No time to order it, no Kindle version available. But wait, what's this?


I'm not a big fan of audiobooks. They tend go put me to sleep. In fact, I often use one for just that purpose, and if I set the shut diff timer for 15 minutes, I almost never make it to that point, so strong a soporific is this for me. But in this case, I'm going to give it a go. In tandem with the original publication. 

You know, I doubt that there's any writer who has been more subject to Restored / Expanded versions of their works than William S. Burroughs. Is that because he continued to rework his texts, or because his original works were subject to such strict censorship by editors? 

Okay. 184 pages, then. Though I won't be able to track pages very well. Guess % will have to do for this one.


Day 1 (DDRD 2,829),  July 31, 2025

"Read" to 33%...approximately page 61.

Well. The Editor's Introduction accounts for quite a few of the Redux version's 100 added pages: it ends at 59 minutes...about 20% of the whole Redux book. (This would equal approximately 37 pages.

According to the Editor's Introduction, Queer was supposed to be the sequel to The Yage Letters, not vice versa as I had thought. So...Burroughs wrote Junky first, then immediately started work on Queer. But the house that was going to publish Junky (Ace) wanted more material, so Burroughs strip-mined Queer for some of that material. (Thus some of the Restored Text of Queer was material taken back from Junky. Then he wrote the "letters" which constitute The Yage Letters * But it wasn't published until 10 years after Junky  (1963), and Queer wasn't published until 1985, after most of Burroughs' other works had seen print. What a convoluted bibliography! 

After the Editor's Introduction, there's a section entitled "The South American Book Might Turn Into Something of Interest." It seems to be more Editor Introduction. In it, we add further confusion to the whole bibliography affair when we get a reference to "From Naked Lunch Book 3: In Search of Yage." Also, "Whether the letters of In Search of Yage are authentic records or literary works, or whether we attribute them to some composite figure inhabiting the interzone between fact and fiction, a hybrid of William Burroughs and his persona, William Lee, changes how we read them, and behind the received version of how these letters were written there lies another story altogether."

Also, part of The Yage Letters was "cannibalized" to form a part of Naked Lunch. Thus at this point I say ⚐⚐⚐⚐⚐.

ANYway...this section ends at 1:33:15, which is 33% of the book...thus approximately 61 pages. Which means that Redux doesn't include that much "new" Burroughs material. And there's also a 27 minute section at the end of the book which I'd guess is editorial commentary, so maybe indicating even less "new" Burroughs material...like maybe jyst 20 pages or so?


* "Harris established that the 1953 letters were in fact largely fabricated from notes and a prose narrative which Burroughs first wrote." (https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Yage_Letters

P.S. The audio book thing worked out okay. I am glad to be switching to text for the next (and major) part of the book, though.  I think I'll play the audiobook along as I read just to see what kind of changes the editor made from his comments in the introduction(s). It seems like it was primarily punctuation and spelling stuff.

P.P.S. I have had a lot of visitors from Brazil in the past day...1.89 K. O que houve com isso? I dunno, but 

Valeu pela transmissão, Brasil!

Stopped at page 19 (2:02:03, 43%). The new version of Internet Archive is a pain in the ass. If you stop reading, when you start back up it opens to page 1. As for the audio vs. text, there's almost no difference at all. I noticed a few times when the reader did a contraction that wasn't it the text if added a shirt word (like "an"), but they might have jyst been Reader lapses. At any rafe, they make no difference whatsoever, so I'm not very impressed with this whole Redux business as if now.

P.P.P.S. Oops. My mistake. If you hit the little bookmark symbol on the left of the screen on Internet Archive, you can set a bookmark, and when you reload the page later you can do he same think to get back to the page you marked. Not as smooth as the old system nor so wide as a church door, but t'will do.

And furthermore...I read a nice review of The Yage Letters Redux in Rain Taxi*. You can check it out HERE.

* Which, by the way, has published a half-dozen or so of my book reviews. 🔴 [Actually it was 8. I checked.]






Day 2 (DDRD 2,830),  August 1, 2025

"Read" to 39.

The guy who reads the "Bill Lee" sections--the majority of the book--is terrible. It sounds like he's trying to do an imitation of Burroughs' voice, but it's a bad imitation, and he ends up sounding angry about everything.

Ah-ha! There's a footnote on Page 42 that wasn't included in the Audiobook. It's a good footnote, too:


Wonder why they left it out.

An added section! "Roosevelt After Inauguration." Available on several sites, like THIS ONE. Pretty short, but worth perusing. Fits in well with the current political scene in the US of A. Oh...correction. The link text isn't the whole thing that's read on the audiobook...though it does include a YouTube video of Burroughs reading this Reddit version, so there's that. This bit is so much like Trump's moves that it's uncanny. 

This first section ("In Search if Yage") ends at 3:16:06 / 69% / page 49. The next section ("Seven Years Later") is mostly Ginsburg, so some relief from that obnoxious reader's voice. 

Added Ginsburg section: about going to a doctor, and only a few lines long. Very skippable.

Another section when Ginsburg is talking about a man preparing a drug for him has some different FD's just a few lines. It makes no difference whatsoever.

In addition to a better reader (who seems to be imitating Ginsburg), this section has two drawings and a poem. Some minor variations throughout, but none substantial.

The Burroughs reply letter which ends this section (which is not included in the audiobook) is a pretty interesting note on cut up technique...obviously very early in Burroghs'  experiments with Brion Gysin's "discovery." Strangely, this letter is signed William Burroughs instead if Bill Lee.

This section ends at 3:39:28 / 77% / page 66.

Then: "Epilogue." Ends at 3:45:44 / 79% / page 72. And that's it for the original version of the book. (The remaining pages are either blank or lists of other City Lights books.) So that leaves 21% of the book,  which would amount to approximately 39 pages. Let's see what we've got there.

First up, Appendix 1, a description of yage preparation...parts of which were familiar, I think repeating lines from earlier on in the book.

Then Appendix 2, a Burroughs letter. Lots about centipedes.

Appendix 3, 4...more, more, more.

Time for a break, I think. I'm at 3:58:16, 83% of the way through. Probably will finish this off later today.

The LFPL has two copies of Naked Lunch Restored Edition). Surprisingly, both are out. So I put in a request, but as I will be needing it tomorrow, I checked out an e-copy. So I guess I'm still on this William S. Burroughs Train. 

Coinky Dinky Time: I've been following John Porcellino's work for some time now, and when I (recently) found out that he had a Facebook page, I started following that, too. And today, just a few hours after I wrote about Brion Gysin (who seems to have invented the cut cup method of writing) popularized by William S. Burroughs, this appeared in my Facebook feed:


No doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.







Day 3 (DDRD 2,831),  August 2, 2025

"Read" to Page 184, The End. The last sections have a little bit of repeated matter, but most of it is new, including ore material from Ginsberg. So I guess the Redux is worth seeking out. (I'd doubted that before.) I'm becoming interested in Ginsberg. "One day death will vomit me out of this body." He seems like a gentle, wise man. 

So now...I think it's going to be Naked Lunch. Not sure how I feel about that, but time will tell.


Tuesday, July 29, 2025

Queer (2024)

 


This was one of the few movies I went to see in the theater by myself. The last one before this was Batman v. Superman (2016). And before that...I can't even remember one. But I really wanted to see this, and didn't want to wait for it to come out on a streaming service. I was pretty blown away by the movie. Then at the end, there's a scene where Daniel Craig walks into an empty hotel room and looks into a tiny model of the hotel that he's in and sees himself walking around. At that point the screen went black, strobe lights started flashing, and I thought, "That is the weirdest ending to a movie I have ever encountered." Turns out it was a fire alarm, and I had to leave the theater without watching the final couple of minutes of the movie. When it finally came out on HBO I watched those final minutes. It was literally just a couple of minutes, and nothing really substantial happened, but I did feel a sense of completion, nonetheless.

Then I decided to read the novel, which I did in 3 days, and there were so many points of interest for me: things that changed my understanding of the movie and things that were left out of the movie and things that were added to the movie... that I decided I needed to watch the movie again. I did, and I found it to be incredibly intense. I have to admit that some of the homoeroticism made me uncomfortable, but behind that the power of the depiction of obsession and yearning really moved me. The director did some pretty brilliant things to bring William Lee's feelings to the screen, and I could only conclude that this was a great movie. And that I would be watching it again pretty darn soon.

I was also really impressed by Daniel Craig. I have always liked him, but his acting in this movie was far beyond anything I have seen from him before. And it was a brave role for him to take on. He risked alienating most or even all of the audience that had made him famous and wealthy. My hat is definitely off to him.

 🎩 

P.S. Although there are some very strong homerotic moments, there are only two brief scenes where penises are seen, and they're just hanging limply and nothing is done to or by them.

DDR: Junky by William S. Burroughs


 

Need more William S. Burroughs.  This is his first "novel," and it weighs in at xxxi + 197 = 228 pages.

It was first published as 1/2 of an Ace Double, and looked like this:


35 cents then, $1,900 or so now.


Day 1 (DDRD 2,827),  July 29, 2025

Read to page 29...and also to xxxvii and pages 163 to 187*, so much more than 30 pages. And you know what? I STILL feel like reading more. And I just might do that after I eat a little something.


* They put several different prefaces in appendices at the end of the book and I wanted to read them before actually starting the text.


JiC:

Novels and other long fiction

Junky (1953)

Queer (written 1951–1953; published 1985)

Naked Lunch (1959)

The Nova Trilogy

  The Soft Machine (1961–1966)

  The Ticket That  Exploded  (1962–1967)

  Nova Express (1964)

Dead Fingers Talk (1963)  – sections of Naked Lunch, Soft Machine, and Ticket that Exploded re-arranged into a new narrative.

The Last Words of Dutch Schultz (1969)

The Wild Boys: A book of the dead (1971)

Port of Saints (1973)

The Red Night Trilogy (1981–1987):

  Cities of the Red Night (1981)

  The Place of Dead Roads (1983)

  The Western Lands (1987)

My Education: A Book of Dreams (1995)

So 14 books. Of course there's also a fair amount of non-fiction stuff....


Later...

I think this is the first appearance of a centipede in the writing of William S. Burroughs. He is going into withdrawal and is seeing horrible visions: "...I closed my eyes and saw New York in ruins. Huge centipedes and scorpions crawled in and out of empty bars and cafeterias and drugstores on Forty-second Street." (32)

Clearly W.S.B. had a fixation on bugs, and centipedes seem to have been particularly revolting to him.

P.S. I bought this a loooonnnng time ago, but just opened it today:


Mmm-hmm. Good rockin' tonight.

In the course of searching for that (👆 ) video, I found two other Burroughs books:

So there's that.






Day 2 (DDRD 2,828),  July 30, 2025

Read to page 65. 

Watched most of Naked Lunch last night. Remembered going to the theater to see this when it came out back in 1991. By myself. There were at least a few other people in the theater. And what struck me was that when I was laughing--I thought the movie was hilarious at times--no one else was. At any rate, I enjoyed the movie quite a bit, and I'm going to finish it up this morning. This is so different from the Queer movie; far less emotionally involving, far less serious, I suppose... unless it's just me who thinks Naked Lunch funny, which is obviously a possibility.

More on insects:

"Doolie sick was an unnerving sight. The envelope of personality was gone, dissolved by his junk-hungry cells. Viscera and cells, galvanized into a loathsome insect-like activity, seemed on the point of breaking through the surface." (60)

Sounds like the insect nature is in the center of all of us, and that when the societal inhibitions are washed away, what's left is the insect. A disturbing and loathsome thought.

As for Naked Lunch...

It was another box office loser. According to IMDb:

Box office

Budget

$16,000,000 (estimated)

Gross US & Canada

$2,641,357

Opening weekend US & Canada

$64,491Dec 29, 1991

Gross worldwide

$2,665,810

So it lost a little over $13 million.

Now I'm going to watch it with the commentary on.

Later...

Read a bit more. Just kind of got sucked into it. Read to page 94. And now...gonna read some more.

Even Later...

"What I look for in any relationship is contact on the nonverbal level of intuition and feeling, that is, telepathic contact." (149)

Read to page 197. The End. 

A strangely compelling book. And I don't feel like my William S. Burroughs stomach is full yet, so....



Monday, July 28, 2025

Monteverdi & Scarlatti & Carlos

I've been aware of Wendy Carlos since she was William Carlos. As a teenager,  I listened to Switched on Bach and even in those I Hate Classical Music days, I knew that it was something special. 

So 50 years later, when I ran across a mention of the Switched on Box, which collected all four of Carlos's Classical Moog albums, my first thought was, I want that. And I found several copies...all used...online. They varied between $250 and $650.

I didn't want it that much.

But just on a whim I looked at the LFPL website, and what do you know...they had a copy.

I was only a little bit excited until I looked at the track listing for the second CD:


Monteverdi AND Scarlatti?

Be still my beating heart.

Well, turns out it was the wrong Scarlatti--Domenico, not his daddy, Alessandro--but hey, close counts in horseshoes and classical music, right?

At any rate, it was sweet to hear some Monteverdi played on the Moog. 


Saturday, July 26, 2025

DDR: Queer by William S. Burroughs

 


In the spirit of "If 11 doesn't take the taste out of my mouth, nothing will!"* I decided to supplanted my aborted reading of The Man Without Qualities with William S. Burroughs' Queer. It's short--42 + 150 = 192, though the novel itself is only 119 pages--and I've been wanting to read it ever since I saw the movie (several months ago, in one of my very few solo visits to the movie theater). And I definitely need something to wash the bad taste of The Man Without Qualities, from my mouth.


* A man walks into a bar and asks the bartender for eleven shots of whiskey. The bartender asks, "What's the occasion?" and the man replies, "My first blow job!" The bartender says, "Well hell, I'll give you a free one and make it an even dozen." The man replies....


Day 1 (DDRD 2,825),  July 26, 2025

Read to page 11. (Also vii through l and 121 through 137.) After that The Man Without Qualities  bullshit, this waspure pleasure.

By the way:

Budget for the 2024 film version of Queer: $56,384,353. Box Office: $7,000,000. So that's not good. It should come as no surprise that I thought the movie was great, and that Daniel Craig delivered an Oscar worthy performance. Sigh.

Addendum: read a bit more. To page 25. That's 83 pages. Looks like this won't take too long.

I'm going to have to rewatch the movie after I finish reading thus thing. I was going to do that anyway, but reading it now and picturing Daniel Craig's, motions is revifying and makes me want to plunge back into the visuals.

Hey, look, a sex scene:

"The boy smiled and lay down on the bed. Lee's body was moving in rhythmic contractions, every muscle caressing the smooth hard body of the other, the amoeba reflex to surround and incorporate. His body tensed convulsively rigid, sparks flashed behind his eyes and the breath whistled through his teeth. Slowly, his muscles relaxed away from the other's body. They both smoked a cigarette, their shoulders touching under the covers."(18)






Day 2 (DDRD 2,826),  July 27, 2025

Read to page 70.

More: "In the dark theater Lee could feel his body pull toward Allerton, an amoeboid protoplasmic projection, straining with a blind worm hunger to enter the other's body, to breathe with his lungs, see with his eyes, learn the feel of his visara and genitals." (32-33)

Which of course evokes the scene late in the movie after Lee and his companion have taken the drug and changes start to happen. (Avoiding a spoiler here.) This also links up nicely with the words Bobo uttered to Lee to discourage him from committing suicide: "No one is ever really alone. You are part of everything alive." (36)

Today was a very busy day: 4 hours on the road to and from Indianapolis, 1 hour in church, 4 hours in the Indianapolis Children's Museum. But I STILL got my 30 pages in. A bit more than that, actually. (QUITE a bit more.)

No brag...just fact.

Addendum: read to page 80. Those last ten pages while a bit stoned on Delta 8 / 9, but the words still penetrated.









Day 3 (DDRD 2,827),  July 28, 2025

Read to page 150, The End. That was a smooth read indeed. So smooth, in fact, that I think I'm going to stop at the library today and pick up Junky. 

Also, think I'm going to watch the movie Queer again today. I was very interested to compare the book and the movie in my mind as I read. I think the movie did a very good job of interpolating material outside of the novel in order to make a complete story. 




Wednesday, July 23, 2025

Asimov's Annotated Gilbert and Sullivan

 


Some time ago I saw this beauty at Half-Price Books, but it had a $30 sticker price, so I walked away. I went back a few days later after Googling and finding that this was a book that went for $50 to 356.57, but of course it was too late, someone else had seized the day. I've been keeping my eyes peeled since online and instore but there's been nada. Today it finally occurred to me to check Internet Archive, and guess what?

https://archive.org/details/asimovsannotated00sull/mode/1up

Oh, Internet Archive, how I do love thee.


Monday, July 21, 2025

Isaac Asimov Fucks Up Again!

Well...it might not be Isaac's fault, but since he talked about how he did his own Indexes for his early books...and since The Wellsprings of Life came out in 1960, I think the buck stops with him.


Those errors aside, this was actually quite an excellent book. Isaac takes us from the first chemicals on Earth to modern man, with all stops in-between. Oddly enough, his incessant focus on explaining these wonders through the lens of science led me to one inescapable conclusion: it would be idiotic to think that there was not a God involved in this process of creation. So thanks for stomping on those embers of atheism, Isaac! 

Saturday, July 19, 2025

Warlord Omnibus

I don't know who needs to hear this, but surely SOMEone: 

In four months (November 25th, to be exact) DC is going to release this 704 page collection (1st Issue Special #8, Warlord #1-50, and Amazing World of DC Comics #12) of Mike Grell's Warlord. 

I love Mike Grell. His Jon Sable, Freelance...Starslayer...Green Arrow...Legion of Superheroes... all fine, fine work. A bit reminiscent of Neal Adams, actually. But my favorite has always been Warlord.

You can buy this gloriously fat volume from Amazon, of course...for $67.50...which is 33% off the retail price. But if you're sick of that pusillanimous toady Jeff Bezos and his minions, how about this instead: 


I've been buying from Thrift Books for a long time, and in addition to great selection, excellent prices, superb service, and Bonus Points which give you free books when you collect a few, check out this Mission Statement :


Oh, yeah. I'm putting in my pre-order Right Now.

Saturday, July 12, 2025

Monday, July 7, 2025

DDR: The Man Without Qualities Volume II by Robert Musil



This is a BIG one. 1,045 pages. [Addendum: plus 10 pages for the Secret Preface.] Assuming I can maintain a 30 pages a day pace, that means this one will take more than a month--35 days. Also, I need to pick up the pace on The Resurrection of Mary Magdalene, as that comes due in August and is not renewable.

I may indeed have bitten off more than I can chew. 🦷🦷🦷 But as me dear sainted mah-thur used to say, "Faint heart ne'er won fair maiden."


Day 1 (DDRD 2,806),  July 7, 2025

The page numbering on Volume II continues from Volume I, so the first text page here is 729. Today I read to page 760.

Hey...only 1,015 pages to go. 





Day 2 (DDRD 2,807),  July 8, 2025

Read to page 790. Funny...this is just a continuation of Volume I, not a new book, but I'm still having that Starting A New Book disorientation. And wondering if I have it in me to go another 985 pages here. Why? Why? Tell 'em that it's human nature.






Day 3 (DDRD 2,808),  July 9, 2025

Read to page 820.





Day 4 (DDRD 2,809),  July 10, 2025

Read to page 850.

A prelude to incest: "But whoever has not already picked up the clues to what was going on between this brother and sister should lay this account aside, for it depicts an adventure of which he will never be able to approve: a journey to the edge of the possible, which led past - and perhaps not always past - the dangers of the impossible and unnatural, even of the repugnant: a "borderline case," as Ulrich later called it, of limited and special validity, reminiscent of the freedom with which mathematics sometimes resorts to the absurd in order to arrive at the truth." (826)

Or so it seems. 24 pages later and still no incestuous action. Not that I'm anxious for it, jyst sayin', sir.






Day 5 (DDRD 2,810),  July 11, 2025

Read to page 874.

"The truth swims like a fish in an invisible principle; the moment you lift it out, it's dead." (874)






Day 6 (DDRD 2,811),  July 12, 2025

Read to page 910. Still no incest.






Day 7 (DDRD 2,812),  July 13, 2025

Read to page 927.






Day 8 (DDRD 2,813),  July 14, 2025

Read to page 950. Hmmm. Haven't been hitting it for the past few days. Feeling kind of over it, actually. Which is not good considering that I still have 825 pages to go. Or do I?






Day 9 (DDRD 2,814),  July 15, 2025

Read to page 970.

That telltale line--


It wasn't there before I started reading. Which means--and keep in mind that the Received Stamp is for January 1, 2019--that I'm the first person to read this book. I don't think the LFPL got its $27.50 worth put of this purchase. And right now I'm feeling that way myself as I stumble through the pages. A good or great line surfaces every page or two, but the rest is all swirling miasma, shapes briefly and barely glimpsed, conversations that wander into echoes and then silence. What is this novel about? I think this guy wants to fuck his sister. Is that enough to hang 1,700 pages on? I think not. So...stop then? There are so many other books I want to read, and this will take at least another 26 days. Is it worth? 

I'm thinking not.

I'm thinking ⎒🔌.






Day 10 (DDRD 2,815),  July 16, 2025

Read to page 1,000. So that's a landmark of sorts. It's also the farthest I've ever gotten into any book and still been unsure whether I would finish it or not. 😕 






Day 11 (DDRD 2,816),  July 17, 2025

Read to page 1,020.

It's been a Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day, so despite the fact that I was awakened at 3:30 am (!), I was hard pressed to get any reading done. Made a late effort to get to 1,020, and I think that's it for the nonce.






Day 12 (DDRD 2,817),  July 18, 2025

Read to page 1,060. Well lookee there: a full day's read and then some. Still no incest, though.






Day 13 (DDRD 2,818),  July 19, 2025

Read to page 1,100.

And lo, a second crack has appeared:


And I don't treat books roughly. No doubt about it, this book has not been read before. 6 1/2 years of malingering on the shelf. 😔 

Despite my lapses vis-a-vis the 30 pages a day goal, my 37 days devoted to The Man Without Qualities  is still at an average of 29.73 pages perhaps. Woot.

On the other hand...1,100 pages in (and a mere 674 pages to go), and I'm  STILL not sure that will finish this book. Sigh.





Day 14 (DDRD 2,819),  July 20, 2025

Read to page 1,130. When, much to my surprise, the book ended.


Without incest, I feel compelled to note. And without any resolution.

Too bad they didn't have the decency to collect these 644 pages as Volume III.





Day 15 (DDRD 2,820),  July 21, 2025

Read to page 1,154.

Woke up, fell out of bed, then started reading. As I made my way through the Preface (10 pages which are not numbered in accordance with the novel's page numbers) I kept thinking, this is where I should stop and move on to something else. Then this: "...these pages contain some of Musil's most powerful and evocative writing." (xv*) So...I suppose that I shall carry on like a wayward son...at least for a bit.

Do you remember Erica King's "zipless fuck" from way back when in Fear of Flying? Well, check this out: "...there had been awakened in the objects a liberation that was astir with miracles. 'The next moment it would have peeled us out of our clothes like a silver knife, without our having moved a finger!' she thought." Musil got there first.


* Yes, I know.





Day 16 (DDRD 2,821),  July 22, 2025

Read to page 1,190. Well...there was a kiss on the neck and a crushing together of sibling bodies, but still no incest. For the record, that's 340 pages of novels incest since we were warned that incest was coming 'round the mountain.  Not that i want to see it--I don't. But you put a gun on the coffee table and....





Day 17 (DDRD 2,822),  July 23, 2025

Read to page 1,220.

"...love...enables one to see what isn't there." (1,206)

Well...THAT's the everlivingfuckingtruth, ennit?





Day 18 (DDRD 2,823),  July 24, 2025

Read to page 1,250. 

Yesterday I took The Man Without Qualities with me when I went to visit the cancer doctor. When the doctor came in, she took a look at the book and asked me if it was good. I said I wasn't sure...that I kept thinking that I was about to quit, but then kept going. She looked and saw that I was quite a ways into it and chuckled, then said she was the same way, it was hard for her not to finish a book.

But I'm still thinking. 475 pages to go, and that's still substantial. Almost 16 days' worth of 👁 👁 work. Is it worth it? Based on today's 30 pages, I'd say no. No. NO!





Day 19 (DDRD 2,824),  July 25, 2025

Read to page 1,267...and had to stop. This novel has dissolved into a miasma of token philosophy. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing...but it's not what I'm looking for. So I stopped and read some Beond Apollo. And then I read a few pages of The Name of the Wind. Then Superman #28 (looks interesting). And now...he'll, I'm going back to the Malzberg.  I'll try to read some more Musil later. Maybe.





Day 20 (DDRD 2,825),  July 26, 2025

Nope.

Didnt make it back to Musil. Knocked out some Malzberg and comics, though.

And today? Read to page 1,271, wading through bad and trivial "philosophy" (proving that hungry men seek food, for example) before I stopped. I looked through upcoming pages and saw that the drone just went on and on: no characters, no plot, just the drone.

I hate to do it after all the energy I've invested,  but this is bullshit.

I quit. 

Sunday, July 6, 2025

On Berberine

5 Scientifically Proven Benefits

1 Decreases Insulin Resistance

One of the key challenges people with high blood sugar face is insulin resistance, where the body stops responding to insulin effectively. Berberine has been shown to make insulin work better, which helps lower blood sugar naturally and improves your overall energy.

Berberine activates AMPK (adenosine monophosphate-activated protein kinase), a powerful enzyme sometimes called the metabolic master switch. This enzyme improves insulin sensitivity at the cellular level, meaning your body processes sugar more efficiently instead of letting it spike dangerously.


2 Reduces Sugar Production in the Liver

Many people don’t realize the liver is constantly making glucose, even when you haven't eaten sugar. Berberine helps slow down this “sugar factory” by stimulating a metabolic process called glycolysis, which converts sugar into energy, while also reducing gluconeogenesis (creation of glucose) This two-pronged approach helps keep blood sugar levels in a healthier range, and works even while you sleep.ows Down Carbohydrate Absorption

High-carb diets can make blood sugar levels swing wildly. Berberine slows down how fast carbohydrates are broken down, which in turn prevents dramatic blood sugar spikes.

Studies suggest Berberine helps the liver produce less glucose while boosting thermogenesis, your body’s natural fat-burning activity. The result? More stable blood sugar levels and better metabolism overall.


3 Slows Down Carbohydrate Absorption

High-carb diets can make blood sugar levels swing wildly. Berberine slows down how fast carbohydrates are broken down, which in turn prevents dramatic blood sugar spikes.

Studies suggest Berberine helps the liver produce less glucose while boosting thermogenesis, your body’s natural fat-burning activity. The result? More stable blood sugar levels and better metabolism overall.


4 Improves Gut Health

Recent research shows that Berberine can support the health of your gut microbiome. It increases the amount of short-chain fatty acid (SCFA)-producing bacteria while reducing unhealthy microbial diversity.

A healthy gut is critical not just for digestion, but also for immune balance, inflammation control, and healthy weight regulation. By improving your microbiome, Berberine supports a strong and balanced metabolism.


5 Targets Deep Belly Fat

Excess belly fat, also known as visceral fat, is strongly linked to insulin resistance and type 2 diabetes. Berberine may help remove deep body fat that accumulates around the organs.

In one clinical study, participants taking 3,500mg of Berberine daily over 12 weeks lost about 5 pounds and reduced their BMI and belly fat significantly. Other studies showed similar results,with participants reporting smaller waistlines and more energy.


https://archive.org/details/berberine-blood-sugar-control-natural-diabetes-weight-loss-supplement/page/n1/mode/1up


There's also some interesting information on this Web M.D. page: https://www.webmd.com/obesity/berberine-health-benefits


Autism

"...what they need is no different than what anybody else needs. You can just see it a lot easier. " 

Tom D'eri, quoted in "Coming of Age With Autism" by Judith Newman, National Geographic May 2020

Saturday, July 5, 2025

Glucose

My glucose levels went through the roof awhile back. At first I thought it was due to the introduction of Atorvastatin, which has been shown to increase glucose levels in some people. I tried to talk about this with two of my doctors and my pharmacist, all of whom told me that that was nonsense. Finally a pharmacist from Express Scripts got involved, said that I was right, and my doctor changed my prescription to Rosuvastatin (Crestor). Alas, though it helped, it wasn't the answer, and my glucose levels rocketed to dangerous levels. I tried to increase my exercise, but between my heart disease and the removal of most of my left lung, that was somewhere between very difficult and impossible for me to do. I didn't know where to turn. My doctor was talking about starting me on insulin, which I definitely wanted to avoid. 

So I began to search. And I happened upon an infomercial for something called Berberine.

Now, I might not look it, but I'm smart enough to know that somewhere between many and all infomercials are bullshit. But I listened carefully, and what Doc Ock was saying seemed reasonable. So  I did what any self-respecting semi-intellectual would do: I Googled Berberine and glucose levels. That brought me to an NIH study (https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC6434235/) which affirmed that there was indeed a connection between the two. So I crossed my fingers and put in an order for 


I chose that brand because it was listed as best on a website that at least gave the appearance of being objective.

And? 

Well...I was supposed to have my blood levels checked that week, but I put it off until my Berberine arrived and I had a week's worth of it in me. When the data came in it looked like this:





 

So my Glucose level had dropped dramatically.  Skeptic that I am, though, I tried to think if there were any other possible factors to explain this drastic change. I came up with four possibilities:

(1) I had not been fasting.
(2) I had had two bottles of water to drink in the two hours preceding my blood draw.
(3) I had been eating a handful of walnuts every day for a couple of weeks.
(4) Berberine. 

Well...(1) unless I seriously misunderstand the situation, not fasting should have led to worse glucose level results, not better.

(2) I've had more water than this to drink before past blood draws, and my results were nowhere near this good on those occasions. 

(3) According to an NIH study (https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4679815/), the inclusion of a small amount of walnuts (a small handfull) in the daily diet had a salubrious effect on body functions, but did not affect blood glucose results.

And (4) "In one study, participants taking 3,500mg of Berberine daily over 12 weeks lost about 5 pounds and reduced their BMI and belly fat significantly. Other studies showed similar results...."

"Berberine Blood Sugar Control Natural Diabetes Weight Loss Supplement" by Tayyab khan

https://archive.org/details/berberine-blood-sugar-control-natural-diabetes-weight-loss-supplement/mode/1up


So while further investigations are needed for me to be certain, I'd have to say that at this point it's looking like the Berberine did it.

Might be worth a shot if you're in similar dire straits vis-a-vis your glucose levels.

P.S. On looking through various online postings, the 3,500 units of Berberine alluded to in the NIH study is pretty high and could cause some gastro-intestinal cramps, etc. I'm hitting three tablets of 500 per day and feeling no pain.

Friday, July 4, 2025

Love &


My son, who is autistic, was talking to his girlfriend on the phone. He was on speaker, so it was impossible not to hear what both of them were saying in my tiny house. At one point his girlfriend became very quiet, and for a moment I thought that she was upset with him, but then she said, "I wanna marry you. I wanna take our kids to McDonald's for Happy Meals."

It was so sweet, so innocent, that it made me catch my breath.

That's what life is about. Love and Happy Meals.

Wednesday, July 2, 2025


 

"...but you might as well eat lunch instead,
'cause I aint gonna be no squarehead."

Iggy Pop