(1) Jacqueline used to say "boddering me, boddering me" when something was bothering her, and I find it almost impossible to resist imitating her in such matters of verbal virtuosity.
(2) There's a much longer version of the "Edgar Cayce & Me" story, but I'm currently writing that elsewhere, and when it's finished I'm going to put it up on Amazon as a Kindle piece. For sale and stuff. Writing is great in and of itself, but nothing quite says "I love you" like being paid for blathering, so ahmo give that another try. (The first time didn't turn out so well. Let's just say that I won't be buying a yacht with my share of the proceeds. Or a cup of coffee, for that matter.) Worth a shot, right?
However . . . this has direct bearing on The Blog.
I've been reading Many Mansions: The Edgar Cayce Story on Reincarnation by Gina Cerminara, which I guess is kinda sorta a biography. In part, at least. And in part an examination of some of Cayce's teachings. If they are teachings, I'm not even sure about that. ANYway, I read this:
"Like those who mock, those who condemn must meet within themselves the circumstances of their condemnation."
It was in the context of a story about a person who was a critic who had written mean things about people which had caused many of them pain and suffering. And, of course, it's just a variation on Matthew 7:1-3:
7 Judge not, that ye be not judged. 2 For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again. 3 And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother's eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?
Which I've heard a few thousand times--minimum. (And which I think about a lot. For instance, every time I hear about a Christian giving Somebody shit because Somebody is doing something Christian doesn't agree with. Like being non-gender typical, for instance.)
But it hit me harder this time. Maybe it was the story context. Because I immediately thought, Shit, I often write about how I think this book or this movie or this singer (etc.) is fugly. And I sometimes have a good time cracking wise about it.
So I thought about going back and taking down all of the posts that relate to me pissing or shitting on other things. But there are 2,166 published posts up. (And another 206 in draft versions.) I don't know if my life is long enough for me to go back and look at all of those words. So then I thought, "Maybe I'll just scrap the whole lot of them. Maybe just start over from scratch." And that might be the thing to do. I'm still thinking about it. But . . . well, this:
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Ya know? Should I just wipe all of that out? I don't feel very good about that.
So I'm just thinking. I want to do what's right. I also don't want to come back as a pin cushion in my next life. But what Jesus / Cayce / Cerminara said about judging others has really inserted itself underneath my fingernails.
What do you think?
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