I wanted to see if this poignant line
"writing alone will allow me to endure the final mockeries of living"
was really written by H. P. Lovecraft...or if Romuald Giulivo (writer) + Mercedes Gilliom (translator) had written it in the letter attributed to Lovecraft (writing to Robert E. Howard) in The Last Days of H. P. Lovecraft.
So I " " -ed it and guess what? No results found. I did get this unsolicited AI advice, though:
I've been circling around Peter Matthiessen for several months now. I remember my mom reading one of his books —The Snow Leopard—and I picked up a copy of that and put it on the To Be Read pile. And then more recently the movie At Play in the Fields of the Lord, which is based on a Matthiessen novel, kept coming into my head, so I ordered a copy of that. Before it arrived, however, I decided that I needed to read the book before rewatching the movie, so I ordered a copy of the novel. I started reading it right away, just a few pages, and somehow (don't remember how) found out that Matthiessen had written a book on Leonard Peltier. That one, which is called In the Spirit of Crazy Horse, was available at the library, and it is in my hot little hands right now. I think it's going to be my next DDR after the AFL book.
I also saw a very nice copy of The Peter Matthiesen Reader at Better World Books for a pittance, so....
I've never taken any kind of mushroom before...excepting the kind you put on a salad. But I've been reading some things, and my interest level finally reached the tipping point, so I stopped in at 502 Hemp (👍👍👍💪) and consulted my friend Rocko about what 🍄 product would be the best choice to blow my mind.
Rocko handed me
After an hour I started feeling that special feeling. I was excited. More than ready to have my 🤯.
I waited.
And waited.
The feeling began to recede.
And then 🐡 it was gone.
Ok. Clearly I'd lowballed it. So the next day I ate the rest, clearly putting me into the WALLS MIGHT MELT category.
After a little while I started to get that special feeling.
I waited.
And waited.
The feeling began to recede.
And then 🐡 it was gone.
Razz a frazzin frickin frackin...that shit cost me $25.
Back to Delta 8 and / or 9 for me.
The surprising things you learn when you read:
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| https://www.etymonline.com/word/canvas In the book I'm reading (Sea of Poppies by Amitav Ghosh), when the boss is away the sailors smoke Ganga. If they don't have any, they scrape the sails and smoke that. |
Not only do I own the whole series of Billy Jack movies...I actually saw the second one (Billy Jack 1971) in the theater. But until ten minutes ago I had no idea that there were Billy Jack novels:
Billy Jack by Frank and Teresa Christina
&
The Trial of Billy Jack by Howard Liebling
Both of them are a bit pricey...upwards of $25 on Amazon...but the latter is available for free at
https://archive.org/details/trialofbillyjack0000howa
Yesiree Bob.
I was reading Maria of Guadalupe by Paul Badde to Jacqueline today and ran across this:
"Spalato is the Italian name for the city of Split, Croatia."
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spalato_(disambiguation)
And
is one of my all-time favorite novels.
Thanks, Universe.
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So. AB is the rarest blood type. 5 1/2 people per 100 have it.
AB blood was found in all of the Eucharistic miracles which have been examined. It has also been found on the Shroud of Turin, the Sudarium of Oviedo, and the Tunic of Argenteuil.
Very interesting. Obviously not conclusive of anything, but still.... Interesting.
In addition, the blood and tissue found in the Eucharistic miracles all show signs of extreme bodily stress--consistent with torture and violent death.
🤔
I have great respect and admiration for the institution of
Marriage.
I just wish that I'd found someone else who felt that way.
Hmmm. That sounds more like Sad and Pathetic than humor.
Hey...fuck you, left hemisphere.
Blausen.com staff (2014). "Medical gallery of Blausen Medical 2014". WikiJournal of Medicine 1 (2). DOI:10.15347/wjm/2014.010. ISSN 2002-4436
I think Google is fucking with me.
For YEARS I've been searching for "This Week's Comics" (because [1] I don't usually bookmark, [2] I have a shitty memory, so I never think "League of Comic Geeks"; I ALways think, "This Week's Comics.)
And today, for the first time in a very, very long time...well, EVer, right? when I searched for "This Week's Comics," League of Comic Geeks did not come up at all.
Motherfucker.
I had to go open my History and search for a previous visit to the site, because I couldn't remember its name.
And it is the best comic book site.
I guess that's why Google decided to try to hide it from me.
And you.
But here it is: https://leagueofcomicgeeks.com/comics/new-comics/2026/09/23
Shhhhh.
I had two dreams about my ex-wife last night...with a wake-up in between. In both of them she was angry with me...and very clearly hated me.
In the wake-up between the dreams, I was awash in the knowledge that she really does hate me...assuming she ever thinks of me at all.
The truth is that I loved her with every fiber of my being, and that for most of the 8 years we were together, I was as happy as it's possible to be. And I think she was, too. Even after she left me I could see the love in her eyes.
How does it go from that to hatred? I wish I knew.
But every day I include her and her son (not by me) in my prayers. I hope that she is doing well and has found happiness.
Meanwhile, I am plagued with these dreams, and even there I find no happiness.
"...British rule in India could not be sustained without opium — that is all there is to it, and let us not pretend otherwise. You are no doubt aware that in some years, the company's annual gains from opium are almost equal to the entire revenue of your own country, the United States? Do you imagine that British rule would be possible in this impoverished land if it were not for this source of wealth? And if we reflect on the benefits that British rule has conferred upon India, does it not follow that opium is this land's greatest blessing? Does it not follow that it is our God-given duty to confer these benefits upon others?" (113)
Of course, times have changed, and we are much more subtle about how we exploit impoverished countries nowadays. That's progress. 😎
Day 1 (DDRD 3,242) September 18, 2026
Read to page 30. In the first chapter, we're told of a 1200 year old host and wine sample which are examined and found to be heart tissue and AB blood.
Day 2 (DDRD 3,243) September 19, 2026
Read to page 60.
Day 3 (DDRD 3,244) September 20, 2026
Read to page 135.
Read about a book I really wanted to read: A Sceptic’s Search for Meaning by Mike Willesee...and it's pretty much impossible to find. Looks like I might be able to buy an audiobook version of it from audible.com, but I don't really do well with audiobooks. Still, if that's all there is, then I will probably go for it. Also, there was a reference to
YouTube video, but it's been switched to private viewing. Hmpf.
In other news, I met with some friends this morning and told them about this book, and they seemed pretty interested, although neither of them are Christians. I'm pretty interested in what they think about this and might loan the book to them once I'm finished.
Day 4 (DDRD 3,245) September 21, 2026
Read to page 170. This book has definitely moved from interesting to fascinating for me. I wish I could get somebody else to read it, too, so I could discuss it with them, but my friends are all either atheists or people who don't read this kind of book. (If you're reading this, then I've put you in the atheist group, btw. If I've erred, let me know!)
Day 5 (DDRD 3,246) September 23, 2026
Read to page 230.
Speaking of AB type blood, here's a thing Dr. Serafini seems to have missed: AB blood only appears when one parent has A blood and the other has B. AB blood itself cannot create AB offspring. So that would mean that Jesus got either A or B from Mary...and A or B from God / the Holy Spirit / etc. That seems problematic...and limiting for God/ the Holy Spirit / etc. unless you oropose that Mary had A or B and God specifically designed His sperm to make baby Jesus AB. Seems unlikely, doesn't it?
Day 6 (DDRD 3,247) September 24, 2026
Read to page 279, aka The End. A fascinating book. Not definitive...nor does it aim to be. In fact, at the end Dr. Serafina talks about how disastrous it could be if the results were definitive. (In a nutshell, it would eliminate Faith.)
I'm reading this book
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Then he takes them to the priest. When he opens his tilma, the flowers fall out, and imprinted on the tilma is a picture of the Virgin Mary. (The tilma was made of a material which should have deteriorated in about fifty years yet five hundred years later it is still here.)
If that's not amazing enough, check out these details from the book I'm reading with Jacqueline:
What Amitav Ghosh has written:
Novels
The Circle of Reason (1986)
The Shadow Lines (1988)
The Calcutta Chromosome (1995/1996)
The Glass Palace (2000)
The Hungry Tide (2004)
Gun Island (2019)
Ghost-Eye (2025/2026)
Sea of Poppies (2008)
River of Smoke (2011)
Flood of Fire (2015)
Verse & Illustrated Books
Jungle Nama (2021)
The Living Mountain (2022)
Non-Fiction & Essays
In an Antique Land (1992)
Dancing in Cambodia, at Large in Burma (1998)
Countdown (1999)
The Imam and the Indian (2002)
Incendiary Circumstances (2005)
The Great Derangement (2016)
The Nutmeg's Curse (2021)
Smoke and Ashes (2023)
Wild Fictions (2025)
What Barnes & Noble has on the shelf:
I don't have regrets about all of the women in my life. Nancy, the cashier at Kroger's, is always very nice to me.
P.S. More stoned "humor."
I suppose it started with Christopher Nolan. I watched a video where he went into the Criterion Closet to choose some of his favorite movies. One of them he referred to as The Apu Trilogy. I am a big fan of trilogies and a bigger fan of Christopher Nolan, so I immediately checked the local library listings to see if they had the these movies. They did. I got them, then, as usual, left them to ferment on the table as I did Other Things.
At about the same time I was looking at a New York Times review and saw an ad for a novel called Ghost-Eye by Amitav Ghosh. I don't remember what it was that attracted me to the novel — it might have just been the picture of an eyeball on the cover (see above). At any rate, I checked the library and they had it so I took it out and began to read. It didn't take long for it to pull me in and I finished reading it in just a few days. As soon as I finished it I wanted more from Mister Ghosh.
It was an astonishing novel which touched on reincarnation, environmental disaster, remote viewing, drones, and class warfare...all in one neat package. It also introduced me to Indian and Bangladeshi culture, about which I'd known nothing previously.
At the same time I watched the first two films of The Apu Trilogy, which was also centered around Indian culture. It made for a nice bit of minor immersion.
And just a few minutes ago I picked up this--
Like NOW.
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