I read this in Karl Ove Knausgård's Autumn this morning...
"...pudenda...literally means 'things to be ashamed of.'"
...and didn't believe it. So I Googled. And?
So there it is. What an incredibly misogynistic world we live in.
I read this in Karl Ove Knausgård's Autumn this morning...
"...pudenda...literally means 'things to be ashamed of.'"
...and didn't believe it. So I Googled. And?
So there it is. What an incredibly misogynistic world we live in.
This is abook I've been thinking about reading for a long time. When I saw this cover online (@ Biblio.com) I had to buy it. It arrived in the mail yesterday. I finished the DDR I'd been working on today. I have 15 more days until DDRD 3,000. Figuring that I'd read an average of 30 pages per day, I wanted a book about 450 pages long. This is 319 pages. So I decided to go with this, then see if I can tuck in one more short book before Day 3,000.
So let's go.
Day 1 (DDRD 2,986) January 5, 2026
Read to page 35.
"...we must judge men not so much by what they do, as by what they make us feel that they have it in them to do." (9) An interesting line. While I'm not necessarily in agreeing it, it seems to me that this is very close (and perhaps identical to) something I had Brother Zachary say in my novel, A Matter of Reason: "God is the only one who cares more about what you want to be than about what you are." (Obviously) if I don't know if I agree with that either. Just sayin', sir.
"...in old age we live under the shadow of Death, which like a sword of Damocles may descend at any moment, but we have so long found life to be an affair of being rather frightened than hurt that we have become like the people who live under the Vesuvius, and chance it without much misgiving." (27) This Butler fellow is quite the smart ass. I like that in a writer.
BTW, my copy of this book was published in 1954. 72 years ago!
Day 2 (DDRD 2,987) January 6, 2026
Read to page 72.
Day 3 (DDRD 2,988) January 7, 2026
Read to page 110.
Day 4 (DDRD 2,989) January 8, 2026
Read to page 150.
There's a reference to an organ with wooden pipes which stopped me in my tracks and sent me Googling. I found this fascinating video:
https://youtu.be/p0iL0FQL92s?si=QviEfs7VX37YiqWfDay 5 (DDRD 2,990) January 9, 2026
Read to page 185.
Hey, look!
My old friend Henry Thomas Buckle!
"We can conceive of St. Paul or even our Lord Himself as drinking a cup of tea, but we cannot imagine either of them as smoking a cigarette...." (180)
Now that's funny.
When young Ernest hears Mr. Hawke's sermon and tips over into religious fervor, I have to admit that he reminds me of young me. Oh, the things I did. The prayer circle in the woods. Carrying a Bible around. Other stuff. I guess I've always been on the edge of religious fanaticism. Even now.
In other news...sorry to say that my 72 year old copy of this book has begun to come apart. First the cover, then the spine split most of the way up. Tape is holding things together for now, but it's in fragile shape.
"We must all sow our spiritual wild oats." (183)
Day 6 (DDRD 2,991) January 10, 2026
Read to page 226.
"The Bible is not without its value to us, the clergy, but for the laity it is a stumbling block which cannot be taken out of their way too soon or too completely. Of course, I mean, on the supposition that they read it, which, happily, they seldom do. If people read the Bible as the ordinary British churchman or church woman reads it, it is harmless enough; but if they read it with any care--which we should assume they will if we give it them at all--it is fatal to them." (188)
Well. That's from a conversation between Ernest and another minister. The other minister also insists that the church must go back to some basic Catholic thoughts and practices if it is to properly serve its people. For instance, he insists upon the necessity of confession.
Clever Shake-speare allusion here: "The world was all out of joint, and instead of feeling it to be a cursed spite that he was born to set it right, he thought he was just the kind of person that was wanted for the job, and was eager to set to work, only he did not exactly know how to begin...." (198)
Reference Ernest's, education, the narrator tells us "By far the greater part, moreover, of his education had been an attempt, not so much to keep him in blinkers as to gouge his eyes out altogether. " (212)
The discretion Butler shows vis-a-vis Ernest's "attack" on Miss Matland is not helpful. We're left with no idea if Ernest physically assaulted her or limited his actions to words...and that matters. Sign of the times, I suppose.
Day 7 (DDRD 2,992) January 11, 2026
Read to page 260.
"The greater part of every family is always odious: if there are one or two good ones in a very large family, it is as much as can be expected." (230)
"WHEN I think over all that Ernest told me about his prison meditations, and the conclusions he was drawn to, it occurs to me that in reality he was wanting to do the very last thing which it would have entered into his head to think of wanting. I mean that he was trying to give up father and mother for Christ's sake. He would have said he was giving them up because he thought they hindered him in the pursuit of his truest and most lasting happiness. Granted, but what is this if it is not Christ? What is Christ if He is not this? He who takes the highest and most self-respecting view of his own welfare which it is in his power to conceive, and adheres to it in spite of conventionality, is a Christian whether he knows it and calls himself one, or whether he does not. A rose is not the less a rose because it does not know its own name." (235)
I have often had a similar thought. So many people that I've talked to have expressed the idea that they have no faith in the existence of God, but that they do believe, for instance, in the Big Bang. When they talk about what they believe in, however, it seems to me that they are just using a euphemism for God because they lack the strength* to name it God.
It seems astonishing to me that someone could have written this in 1884 (-ish; the book was written between 1873 and 1884):
"As the days went slowly by he came to see that Christianity and the denial of Christianity after all met as much as any other extremes do; it was a fight about names — not about things; practically the Church of Rome, the Church of England, and the freethinker have the same ideal standard and meet in the gentleman; for he is the most perfect saint who is the most perfect gentleman. Then he saw also that it matters little what profession, whether of religion or irreligion, a man may make, provided only he follows it out with charitable inconsistency, and without insisting on it to the bitter end. It is in the uncompromisingness with which dogma is held and not in the dogma or want of dogma that the danger lies. This was the crowning point of the edifice; when he had got here he no longer wished to molest even the Pope. The Archbishop of Canterbury might have hopped about all round him and even picked crumbs out of his hand without running risk of getting a sly sprinkle of salt. That wary prelate himself might perhaps have been of a different opinion, but the robins and thrushes that hop about our lawns are not more needlessly distrustful of the hand that throws them out crumbs of bread in winter, than the Archbishop would have been of my hero." (237 - 238)
When Ernest leaves the prison, he is overcome with emotion and turns to lean against the wall and weep. He was leaving behind his entire life, setting out on a new road with nothing to hang onto. This made me think of the divorces in my life, especially the second one. I lost the love of my life then, and it emptied me out. For years I was in a desperate state, and the only thing that kept me going...kept me from suicide... was the knowledge that my children needed me. Many (but not all, thankfully) of the friends who had supported me during the divorce got tired of my shit and wandered away. I don't blame them. I was barely even recognizable as human. All of the strength that I had in me was reserved for my kids. Even now, 15 years after that divorce, I am conscious of the gap that's been left inside of me. I no longer long for the love that was lost, but I know that I won't ever recover...no matter how much I want to. It's like wanting to regrow a lost limb. All the desire in your heart, all the strength of your will, cannot make it happen.
In other news...in case you ever need to know, the phrase "sported the oak" means "From sport (“(archaic) to close or shut (a door)”) and oak (“outer (lockable) door of a set of rooms in a college (especially of the University of Cambridge or University of Oxford) or similar institution, especially one made of oak wood”)."
(https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/sport_one%27s_oak)
"...he had, in fact, had to burn his house down in order to get his roast sucking pig...." (255)
You know, I really like this Butler fellow. There are a couple dozen of his books at the library, but most of them are in e-versions. Hmmm.
* It may be unfair of me to label this as a lack of "strength," but I have to admit that that's what it seems like to me.
Day 8 (DDRD 2,993) January 12, 2026
Read to page 299. So might as well go ahead and finish it up, right?
Day 9 (DDRD 2,994) January 13, 2026
Read to page 319...TheEnd. Well. That was quite a good read, actually. I think I'm going to read some more Samuel Butler right soon. But first..I'm thinking maybe Clifford D. Simak's All Flesh is Grass. A little Flesh unit.
A friend I was talking to today mentioned that he'd read something about a scientist who was 99% (or so) sure that we are living in a computer simulation. I've heard the idea before--in fact, quite some time ago, when I read The Holographic Universe (whose publication preceded The Matrix by 8 years), but I haven't thought about it for a while, so my friend reignited my interest and I thought I'd go back for another look at the idea.
I found an interesting piece in an online Popular Mechanics article (https://www.popularmechanics.com/science/environment/a66050444/simulation-theory-new-physics-law-infodynamics/) which introduced me to Melvin Vopson, who is undoubtedly the scientist my friend was referring to. After reading it, I felt the need to see if the public library had any of his books. Turns out they didn't, so I next turned to Amazon. And no surprise...
***** = Must read.
**** = Really good.
*** = Worth reading.
** = A waste of time, but one or two good moments.
* = Not worth your time.
-0 = Less Than Zero: a book so bad that you actually lose several IQ points from the reading experience.
1. Bust by Ken Bruen and Jason Starr ** This came within an hour and 8 minutes of being my last book of 2025 (anxiety, insomnia). If it'd been a better book, it would've made it. But alas, despite my love for Hard Case Crime, this wasn't the book for me. Too much cruelty. Too much misogyny. (It's the kind of book where a "girl" gets slapped around a bit.) Not to mention gaping wounds of plot holes, vacillating characters, and highly unlikely situations. I got this from the library in the Supermax omnibus of three novels, but I don't think I have it in me to read the other two. Time will tell...and so will I.
2. The Warlord by Mike Grell, Omnibus Volume 1 *** Lots of flaws--art out of proportion, story errors and plot holes, stupid magic dwarves...but hey, it's Mike Grell, and I have always been fond of him. 12/31/25 to 1/4/26
3. Flesh by David Szalay * This was a Booker Prize winner? Don't waste your time on it. 12/14/26 to 12/16/26
4. A Sentimental Journey by Laurence Sterne *** A tiny (l x w) book that, thus a quick read, but enough to make me want more Sterne. 1/17/26 to 1/19/26
5. Alice in Bibleland books by Alice Joyce Davidson (28 volumes) 12/25/25 to 1/20/26
6. Blueprints: How Mathematics Shapes Creativity by Marcus du Sautoy *** and sometimes + *. 1/4/26 to 2/2/26
7. One Day, Everyone Will Have Always Been Against This by Omar El Akkad ***** A devestating book. 2/3/26 to 2/4/26
8. Saint Bernadette Soubirous and Our Lady of Lourdes by Sophie Maraval-Hutin 2/6/26
9. Bernadette: Our Lady's Little Servant by Hertha Pauli 10/25/25 to 2/7/26
10. Autumn by Karl Ove Knausgård 2/19/26
11. Agatha: The Real Life of Agatha Christie by Anne Martinetti, Guillaume Lebeau, & Alexandre Franc **** A charming graphic biography.
12. Where Do We Go From Here edited by Isaac Asimov ** Not a very good anthology, I'm sorry to say For one thing, none of the stories were very exciting. The idea was to collect stories that displayed different scientific ideas and then follow-up on the stories with brief commentary and suggested readings. Unfortunately the stories Asimov chose (including one that he wrote) were pretty static plot-wise. Not recommended reading.
13. The Story of Fatima for Children edited by Majora 2/11/26 to 2/15/26
14. I, Robot: The Illustrated Screenplay by Isaac Asimov and Harlan Ellison *** Not the best book I've ever read, for sure, but it was kind of compelling. 2/12/26 to 2/16/26
25. The Beautiful Death by Mathieu Bablet ** I picked this up from the library because I kept seeing Kickstarter promos for Bablet's new book, Silent Jenny, and I wanted to see if it was worth my money to go in on it. Looks like that will be a no. Banal story and occasionally brilliant art marred by inept figures.
26. The Intention Experiment by Lynne McTaggart Intetesting stuff, to be sure, but I'm still left wanting more. More nitty gritty. More specific facts. More.
27. Banquets of the Black Widowers by Isaac Asimov ** Meh. Might be time to move on. Finished 4/29/26
28. Freedom's Dominion: A Saga of White Resistance to Federal Power by Jefferson Cowie
29. The Five Gold Bands by Jack Vance ** This was pretty bad old time science fiction. The plot advance via one wild improbability after another...including the girl who came to capture the protagonist joining up with him and, of course, falling in love. And then there's the little thing about Our Hero killing a million people and tossing it off with nary a blink. But hey...it's an Ace Science Fiction Double! Finished 5/8/26
30. The Dragon Masters by Jack Vance *** This was better than the other half of the Ace Double novel, although it started very slow. Way too much "alien" terminology that really got in the way of the story. But once you hit about the halfway point, it picked up and had a pretty exciting finish. Makes me want to read more Jack Vance. 5/11/26
31. Puzzles of the Black Widowers by Isaac Asimov ** Not great stories, but okay...and since there's only one more volume in the series.... Finished 5/20/26
32. The Death of the Messiah, From Gethsemane to the Grave: A Commentary on the Passion Narratives in the Four Gospels Volume 1 by Raymond E. Brown *** A tough read, but worth it most of the time. Finished 6/15/26
33. St. Bernadette Soubirous: Novena for Humility in Times of Rejection and Insecurity by Rev. Lawrence Ambrose 2/7/26 to ?
34. Our Lady of Fatima: 100 Year's of Stories, Prayers, and Devotions by Donna-Marie Cooper O'Boyle 2/9/26 to 7/1/26
44. The Winter Soldier by Daniel Mason 7/25/26 to 7/29/26 This one felt closer to The Piano Tuner in terms of depth and scope...but wasn't quite as good...by a tad.
45. North Woods by Daniel Mason 7/29/26 to 8/1/26 A most excellent book indeed. Kind of a history of a house, but more interesting than that. Kind of like Alan Moore's Voice of the Fire, but more fun.
46. Country People by Daniel Mason. My final DM book, alas. A most excellent book, this.
47. The Show That Never Ends by David Weigel. Finished 8/8/26. Very interesting and propulsive book...even though I don't really care very much about the history of Prog Rock.
48. Raggedy Ann Stories by Johnny Gruelle Finished 8/21/26
49. THB Volume 1 by Paul Pope 8/10/2026 to 8/11/26 A most excellent book and good news: I have Volume 2 in hand.
50. On Censorship by Al Weiwei ***** Short enough to read in one sitting (an hour, maybe two), important enough to stay with you for the rest of your days. 8/14/26
51. Zodiac: A Graphic Memoir by Ai Weiwei & Gianluca Costantini (Illustrator) ***** A lovely book. Filled with gorgeous, fragile drawings and enough wonderful aphorisms to choke a horse. 8/14/26 to 8/15/26
52. Our Lady of Guadalupe by Father Lovasik, S.V.D.
53. Enough About Angels: The Nobel Lecture by László Krasznahorkai ***** 8/24/26
54. Asimov's Annotated Gilbert and Sullivan by Isaac Asimov. 7/22/26 to 8/26/26
55. Our Lady of Guadalupe and Her Dear Juanito by Sister Marlyn Evangelina Monge
56. The Adventures of Sindbad by Gyula Krúdy **** 8/27/26 to 8/31/26
57. Sergeant Nikola: A Novel of the Chetnik Brigades by István Tamás
58. The Siege of Sziget by Miklós Zrinyi Translated by Laszlo Korossy
59. The Adventures of John Háry Hungarian Hussar by István Tamás ** Alas, after years of waiting and $50, this just wasn't very good. But I regret nothing!
60. The Union Club Mysteries by Isaac Asimov ** Kind of tiresome stories...all very short and all following exactly the same pattern. And for the most part these were not solvable mysteries. They depended upon things that the normal reader wouldn't know. Finished 9/12/26
61. Twenty-Two Stories by J. D. Salinger *** Some bad short stories, but some good long stories 9/10/26 to 9/17/26
62. St. Lucy by John Zique 7/29/26 to 10/4/26
63. The Gunslinger by Stephen King ***
64. The Drawing of the Three by Stephen King ****
65. Custer Died For Your Sins by Vine Delgado **** Finished 11/1/26. https://www.blogger.com/blog/post/edit/5053581872229183899/4027812319994327646
66. Nobel Prize 2025 in Literature: László Krasznahorkai and the Power of Art in an Uncertain World by Gary C. Mansfield
67. The Waste Lands by Stephen King
68. Wizard and Glass by Stephen King
69.
Sea of Poppies by Amitav Ghosh 9/14/26 to