I had two dreams about my ex-wife last night...with a wake-up in between. In both of them she was angry with me...and very clearly hated me.
In the wake-up between the dreams, I was awash in the knowledge that she really does hate me...assuming she ever thinks of me at all.
The truth is that I loved her with every fiber of my being, and that for most of the 8 years we were together, I was as happy as it's possible to be. And I think she was, too. Even after she left me I could see the love in her eyes.
How does it go from that to hatred? I wish I knew.
But every day I include her and her son (not by me) in my prayers. I hope that she is doing well and has found happiness.
Meanwhile, I am plagued with these dreams, and even there I find no happiness.
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