Caveat comedenti: The following is meant primarily to serve as a Bullshit Detector for me. If anyone Out There derives inspiration from My Fat Struggle, that's lovely, but I don't have any expectation that anyone other than myself will be interested in this.
Just sayin', sir.
Continued from: https://songsofinnocenceampexperience.blogspot.com/2017/04/for-fat-eyes-only-more-songs-about.html?q=fat+eyes
Week 11: Tuesday, 5/2/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, blackberries 80c / 6.4gF, toast 60c / 3gF, egg 90c, 16 oz water [240c / 9.4gF]
Lunch: crisp cracker thing 110c / 3gF (and pretty damned tasty), 16 oz water, ham sandwich 120+143+50=313c / 6gF, sunflower seeds 200c / 4gF [623c / 13gF]
Dinner: tuna 123c + cauliflower rice 25c / 2gF + chia seeds 60c / 4gF, vegetable medley 100c / 4 gF, 16 oz water, crisp 110c / 3gF [418c / 13gF]
tuna and crispy cracker 123 + 110 = 233c / 3gF
chips 130c / 3 gF, cookies 110c / 1 gF
blackberries 80c / 6.4gF
1834 calories**
48.8g fiber
48.8g fiber
63 ounces of water
Exercise: stretching + 7 push ups + 20 lb db bp 30/ 40 sit-ups/ bp10/c15/r15 + 30 minutes stationary bike (distance 3355 *, calories -481)
* As for this so-called distance . . . I quote: "This mode shows the distance you have pedaled, in total revolutions." So there's that. Now, I don't know what the hell good that really does me, since I don't know what a revolution = (other than Che Guevara, who he looks a lot like), but if nothing else I suppose it tells me that I'm pedaling 112-ish revolutions per minute, which sounds like a pretty good clip to moi. And as for the calories thing . . . dunno. Sure felt like I burned 481 calories, though. I was feeling kind of tired at the ten minute mark, and it was a little hard to hang in there for a bit. I hadn't had that feeling on the old (now defunct) VitaMaster in some time. Could it be real? (Or could it be magic?) Time will tell.
And speaking of time . . .
Week 11: Wednesday, 5/3/2017 * As for this so-called distance . . . I quote: "This mode shows the distance you have pedaled, in total revolutions." So there's that. Now, I don't know what the hell good that really does me, since I don't know what a revolution = (other than Che Guevara, who he looks a lot like), but if nothing else I suppose it tells me that I'm pedaling 112-ish revolutions per minute, which sounds like a pretty good clip to moi. And as for the calories thing . . . dunno. Sure felt like I burned 481 calories, though. I was feeling kind of tired at the ten minute mark, and it was a little hard to hang in there for a bit. I hadn't had that feeling on the old (now defunct) VitaMaster in some time. Could it be real? (Or could it be magic?) Time will tell.
And speaking of time . . .
I've still got a ways to go, but as some of my flab starts to melt away and as I begin to see the vague outlines of my muscles beneath the murk of flesh, I am starting to think about the final tattoo in my Transformation of the Koi Fish Into a Dragon Triptych. It mos def could happen before the end of 2017. It would mean a lot to me. And it would mean several different things to me as well. Mmm hmm. I think I might just go and write about that for a bit.
** Well, fuck. It wasn't until the next day that I remembered that I hadn't recorded my ten blackberries consumed prior to the snack, which means that I went over my calorie limit by 61 calories. Not so egregious, but I was really determined not to slip up anymore. Penance time.
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, TJ raisin bran 170c / 8gF, chia seeds 60c / 4gF, milk 65c, 10g sunflower seeds 60c / 1.2gF, 16 oz water [365c / 13.2gF]
Lunch: coffee 10c, blackberries 80c / 6.4gF, tuna and crispy cracker 123 + 110 = 233c / 3gF, 16 oz water chips 130c / 3gF. sunflower seeds 100c / 2gF [553c / 14.4]
Dinner: 16 oz water, almond bar 110c / 1gF, TJ Split Pea Soup 260c / 14gF, 3 oz ham 123c, crackers 96c / .5 gF, chips 130c / 3gF, 10 oz water
[719c / 18.5g F]
bread and 1 oz ham 60+41= 101c / 3gF
1738 calories
48.9g fiber *
58 ounces of water
* Wow, really big fiber day there. Mostly courtesy of the split pea soup, which packed quite a wallop (hopefully that's only figuratively) with 37% of the recommended daily allowance in one fell swoop. Hopefully there will be no "repercussions." As with most things, time will tell.
Week 11: Thursday, 5/4/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, TJRB (91g)* 281c / 13gF, chia seeds 60c / 4gF, milk 60c, 10 blackberries 80c / 6.4gF, 16 oz water
[491c / 23.4gF]
Lunch: small banana 90c / 2.6 gF, sunflower seeds 100c / 2gF, coffee 10c, chips 130c / 3gF, 16 oz water [330c / 7.6gF]
Dinneuce2.7gFuce 5 /1.3gF, tomato 12c/1gF, croutons 30c, artichoke 10c/1gF, radishes 4c / .4g F, bacon bits 30c= 91c / 3.7gF, pizza 700c / 4.6gF, 16 oz water [791c / 8.3gF]
8 blackberries 64c / 5.1gF, fat free fudge bar 80c, sugar free jello cup 10c
1766 calories
44.4 fiber
48 ounces of water
* Just need mo this morning, ya know?
** I turned the tension knob to "2" today. It didn't feel like it made a difference, and the calorie burn was about the same as it was yesterday (when it was on "1"), so maybe it didn't make a difference. Or maybe something's not hooked up properly. Or maybe I need to crank it up higher and see what that does. It's a work in progress. Details as they happen.
Week 11: Friday, 5/5/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, RB 190c / 7gF, chia seeds 60c / 4gF, almond milk 25c, 16 oz water [285c / 11gF]
Lunch: coffee 10c, 16 oz water, almond bar 110c / 1gF, ham sandwich 120c / 3gF + 123c + 50c = 293c, chips 130c / 3gF, crisp 110c / 3gF [653c / 10gF]
16 oz water
sunflower seeds 100c / 2gF, 16oz water
two 🍪, 240c*/ 1gF
Dinner: 16 oz water, salad lettuce 5 /1.3gF, tomato 17c/1gF, croutons 30c, artichoke 10c/1gF, radishes 4c / .4g F, bacon bits 30c= 96c / 3.7gF
soup 160c / 2gF, bread 60c / 3gF, cauliflower rice 9.4c / 1gF [665.4 / 12.7]
popcorn 55c / 2gf, fudge bar 80c
1738.4 calories
35.7 g fiber
64 ounces of water
* Got to say, (1) Joe made cookies with his OT, so I HAD to eat a couple of them; it would have been unfatherly not to do so, and (2) I find it very hard to believe that these cookies are 120 c apiece, but that's what the box said, so I'm going to go with that and see what happens. I tell ya, though . . . goes to show, doesn't it? I mean, was a day when I would have put down at least a half-done of these babies without even thinking about it. The challenge here is that if I want to stay under my daily calorie limit, I can only take in another 399 calories today. And that includes dinner. Hmmm. How many calories are in steak, anyway? 100 grams = 271 calories. 3 1/2 ounces. Think I'll have the soup and see how that goes.
And there you have it . . . I made it, despite the challenge of Two Cookies. And in order to Make It, I had to (1) Be aware that I was heading for Too Many Calories, (2) Decide to eat a dinner that would be low in calories (so I passed up the steak dinner I made for Jacqueline and Joe . . . though I did save one piece for myself to have today), and (3) Stick to It. Not really all that difficult. I didn't go hungry. I still had a snack. And for me, at least at this point, that's pretty much the story. It's about being aware, making choices that align with the goal, and sticking with it. It hasn't been about deprivation or suffering. It hasn't even been about lack of enjoyment. In fact, I think that I have actually begun to enjoy my food much more than I previously had. Maybe it's kind of like the difference between listening to music when you're young and each new piece is precious and revered, and listening to music when you're old, when there's such a surfeit of stuff . . . even good or great stuff . . . that it just kind of nudges you and moves on. And I have to say that at least at this point I've been pretty successful in this losing fat business. I have lost over thirty pounds since I started--and I'd already lost ten or so pounds when I started all of this. And I am within eleven or twelve pounds of my first goal, which is to move from the Obese category into the Overweight category. (And if that sounds glib, it's only because I'm writing it down. I can't tell you how painful it is to apply the word Obese to myself. It makes me shudder with shame.)
So let's go.
Week 11: Saturday, 5/6/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, raisin bran 190c / 7gF, chia seeds 120c * / 8gF, almond milk 25c, 16 oz water [345c / 15gF]
Lunch: steak sandwich 133c + 120c / 6gF, sunflower seeds 100c / 2gF, crisp 110c / 3gF, 16 oz water [463c / 11gF]
Dinner ** : salad lettuce 5c / .5gF+ onion 10c / .4gF+ tomato 8c / .4gF, steak 679c + 20, peas 50c / 3.5gF, corn 59c / 1gF, 16 oz water, sunflower seeds 100c / 2gF [908c / 6.5gF]
1739 calories
33.8 g fiber
32 ounces of water
* Decided to embark upon a little experiment this morning and double the amount of chia seeds I put on my cereal. I think that the negative of 60 more calories will be counterbalanced by the positive of 4 more grams of fiber, but I'll have to see how that works out bowelistically. (Details . . . but not too many of them . . . as they happen.) This means that I start the day with 39% of my fiber needs fulfilled. From what I've read, that is a little tricky, in that if you intake too much fiber not only can it have a calamitous effect on your bowels, but it also can just pass through you without doing what it needs to do. But I've had no ill effects with the stuff so far, so I don't think I'm anywhere near my limits. We shall see.
** A big challenge here that I suppose all "dieters" must face at some point: having dinner at a friend's house. I prepped for this a bit in that I was careful to keep my morning and afternoon calories down. And I made a few key choices with respect to dinner: no salad dressing on my salad, water instead of wine, one ear of corn. I was still not sure if I'd made it, but when I did the math--even with what I'm sure was a serious overestimation of the calories in the steak--I'd come in under my goal. H H Hooray! (I also passed on dessert.)
Week 11: Sunday, 5/7/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, raisin bran 190c / 7gF, chia seeds 60c / 4gF, almond milk 25c, 16 oz water [285c / 11gF]
Lunch: coffee 10c, crisp 110c / 3gF, ham sandwich (ham 123c, bread 120c / 6gF, olive oil mayonnaise 50c), chips 130 c / 3 gF, 12 oz water [543c / 12gF]
Dinner: 16 oz water, sunflower seeds 200c / 4gF, chia bar 100c / 3gF, banana 105c / 3.1gF, 16 oz water, black bean soup 240c / 12gF [645c / 22.1gF]
Crackers 120c/ 2gF, pretzels 110c / 1gF, yogurt 70c, blackberries 26c / 2gF = 326c / 5gF
1799 /50.1
1799 calories*
50.1 fiber
44 ounces of water
* Well, shit. Missed it by ten blackberries. But y'know, I seriously burned a lot of calories today, so while I'd rather have made my goal, I'm not going to feel too bad about it. Although the slippery slope is no place I want to be, of course of course.
Weight: Sunday weight in. Decided to go post-breakfast. (I usually go after an exercise and shower session, hoping to squeeze out a few extra ounces of sweat. And probably will do that later, just to see if the results are even better. But for now . . . . ) Got naked. Used the Kindle camera. Got this:
And was very happy with that number. e'en though it was just a smidge below last week's weight. But then I had a thought: I'm holding my Kindle. It's pretty light, but it weights SOMEthing, right? And I wondered if it made a difference. So I got the Kindle camera ready, put it down on the edge of the sink, climbed onto the scale and got my weight, then got off the scale and snapped a picture before the weight display cleared. And?
The Naked and Alone weight actually was a bit less. Hmmpf. So if that's the best weight I get today, that puts me just 10.4 pounds away from my first goal! I'm pretty excited about that.
It's funny, too. When I see that I've made some progress, it really galvanizes me, makes me want to do even better. When I see that I haven't made progress, it inclines me to just say Fuck it and have a snack. I most definitely need at least a little bit of success in order to continue to struggle.
P.S. After exercising and after cutting my grass and after a shower I checked my naked and alone weight again and--
Yep. And (again), I know that a one time showing doesn't make it my real weight, but for this little moment I (1) have lost 37.4 pounds in 11 weeks and about 50 pounds from my heaviest weight and (2) I am less than 10 pounds away from entering the OVERWEIGHT category (Out of Obese and Into the Fat). It's vera exSIGHteen.
Week 11: Monday, 5/8/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, raisin bran 293c / 11gF, almond milk 25c, 16 oz water [328c / 11gF]
Lunch: coffee 10c, crisp cracker thing 110c / 3gF, banana 105c / 3.1gF, 16 oz water [225c / 6.1gF]
553c / 17.1gF
dehydrated beets * 140c / 7gF, 16 oz water
Dinner: sunflower seeds 200c / 4gF, salad lettuce 5 /1.3gF, tomato 12c/1gF, croutons 30c, artichoke 10c/1gF, radishes 4c / .4g F, bacon bits 30c, guacamole 20c / 1gF = 111c / 4.7 gF, baked potato 161c / 3.8 gF, meat170c, cheese 70c, muffin 130c / 2gF
1535c 238 to go
8 oz water, Broccoli rice 35c / 2gF, fffudge bar 80c, yogurt 70c
1720 calories
40.6 fiber
48 ounces of water
* As for these beets . . . I've been reading about how great these things are and how they're a superfood and allathat, do when I saw just Beets dehydrated beets at Trader Joe's today I picked up a pack. And you know . . . I really liked the little fuckers. Which made me wonder if I would like real beets, so I picked up a can of them and might have it with my dinner tonight. More news as it happens.
** A little bit more "distance" than yesterday, yet 331 fewer calories burned? I think not. Obviously yesterdays figure was off--maybe because I don't know how to use the "programmed" thingies. (I just did a straight count up run today.) Might be worth figuring out, though, just for a bit of variation.
Week 12: Tuesday, 5/9/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, raisin bran 170c / 8gF, chia 60c / 4gF, almond milk 25c, toast and butter 60+25 c / 3gF, 16 oz water [350c / 15gF]
Lunch: chips 130c / 3gF and guacamole 20c / 1gF, ham sandwich 120+143+50=313c / 6gF, coffee 10c, crisp 110c / 3gF [563c / 13gF]
913c / 28gF
sunflower seeds 200c / 4gF, 16 oz water, protein muffin 130c / 2gF
Dinner: lentil soup 200c / 16gF, crackers144 c, 16 oz water
1587c / 50gF
chips 130c / 3gF, jello 5c, popsicle 30c
1752 calories
53 grams of fiber
48 ounces of water
Week 12: Wednesday, 5/10/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, raisin bran 170c / 8gF, chia 60c / 4gF, almond milk 25c, 10 blackberries 26c / 2gF, 16 oz water [291c / 14gF]
Lunch: coffee 10c, 16 oz water, sunflower seeds 100c / 2gF, chia bar 100c / 3gF, ham sandwich 120c / 3gF + 73.8c + 50c = 243.8c / 3gF [453.8c / 8gF]
744.8c / 22gF
chips 130 + 195 / 3 + 4.5gF, guac 20c / 1gF, cheese 70c
Dinner: baked potato 161c / 3.8 gF, chicken noodle soup 240c / 2gF, vegetable mix 100c / 4gF, fffudge 80c
1740.8 calories
40.3 g fiber
48 ounces of water
Week 12: Thursday, 511/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, raisin bran 170c / 8gF, chia 60c / 4gF, almond milk 25c, 16 oz water [265c / 12gF]
Lunch: sunflower seeds 200c / 4gF, chia bar 100c / 3gF, chips 120c / 3gF, guacamole 20c / 1gF, banana 105c / 3.1gF, crisp 110c / 3gF, 16 oz water [655c / 17.1gF]
920c / 29.1 gF
Dinner: salad lettuce 5c /1.3gF, 3 raddishes 3c / .3g F, tomato 17c / 1gF, croutons 30c, artichoke 10c/1gF,, 16 oz water, 2 baked potatoes 322c / 7.6 gF, and Trader Joe's Tropical Mango Pineapple Salsa 40c [427 / 11.2gF]
Akashi bar 102 / 4gF, Miller Lite Beer 96c *, chips 172c / 4gF
1717 calories
48.3 fiber
48 ounces of water
* First beer I've had in a very, very long time. And I didn't mean to have one tonight. But I took Jacqueline and Joe to Zanzabar to see a concert (long story, another time) and Jacqueline asked if she could have a beer. And I knew she wouldn't like it and wouldn't drink more than a sip, but shit, man, she's 25 years old, and she gets to make that choice, y'know? So she took one sip. And since that fuckin' beer cost me $5, I had to drink it. It all came out okay, no worries.
Week 12: Friday, 5/12/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, toast 60c / 3gF, egg 90c, chia seeds 60c / 4gF, 16 oz water [220c / 7gF]
Lunch: dried broccoli florets 250c / 7gF, chips 120c / 3gF, guacamole 40c / 2gF, Kashia 120c / 4gF [530c / 16gF]
750c / 23gF
Dinner: broccoli rice 35c / 2gF, vegetable mix 100c / 4gF, artichoke 10c/1gF, fish 140c, bread 120c / 6gF, chips 120c / 3gF, guacamole 40c / 2gF [565c / 18gF]
fffudge bar 80c, Kashia 120c / 4gF, popcorn 98, crisp 110c
1723 calories
45 g fiber
ounces of water
According to the online calculator I've been using, for my height 219 pounds is obese, and 218 pounds is overweight. Today I saw 220.4 pounds on my scale (after I'd done my exercise routine).
As in 2.4 pounds away from being overweight.
Mmm-hmm.
Week 12: Saturday, 5/13/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, raisin bran 170c / 8gF, chia 60c / 4gF, almond milk 25c, 16 oz water [265c / 12gF]
Lunch: coffee 10c, kasha bar 140c / 4gF, sunflower seeds 200c / 4gF, 16 oz water [350c / 8gF
Dinner: salad lettuce 5 /1.3gF, tomato 12c/1gF, croutons 30c, radishes 4c / .4g F, bacon bits 30c= 81c / 2.7 gF, pork chops 333c, vegetable mix 60c / 2gF, pretzels 110c / 1gF, crisp 110c / 3gF, 16 oz water [694c / 8.7 gF]
1309c / 28.7 gF
Cheerios 100c / 3gF, almond milk 12c, 12 blackberries 36c / 3.6gF, sunflower seeds 200c, 4gF, fffudge bar 80c = 428c / 10.6gF
1737 calories
39.3 g fiber
48 ounces of water
Week 12: Sunday, 5/14/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 20c, nutty nuggets 200c / 7gF, almond milk 13c, 12 blackberries 36c / 3.6gF, banana 105c / 3.1gF, 16 oz water [374c / 13.7gF]
Lunch: 16 oz water, sunflower seeds 200c / 4gF, ham sandwich (ham 123c, bread 120c / 6gF, olive oil mayonnaise 50c), chips 140c / 2gF [633c / 12gF]
1007c / 25.7gF
16 oz water
Dinner: 16 oz water, salad lettuce 5 /1.3gF, tomato 12c/1gF, croutons 30c, radishes 15c / 1g F, bacon bits 30c, artichoke 10c / 1gF = 102c / 4.3gF, vegetable medley 100c / 4gF, potato 161c / 3.8 gF, 3 oz ham 123c, bread 60c / 3gF [546c / 15.1gF]
1553c / 40.8 gF
yogurt 70c, fffudge bar 80c
1703 calories
40.8 g fiber
64 ounces of water
* Was feeling particularly peppy today, so
I decided to shoot for -600 calories. Check.
Weight:
At this moment I am 1.8 pounds away from my goal. (Goal the first, anyway.) Kind of makes me want to go throw up a pound and a half of something or other. But it will come. I've lost . . . no, nix that. I've destroyed fifty plus pounds of body fat. Most of it in the past three months.
I will get to where I want to go. I will be where I want to be.
Week 12: Monday, 5/15/2017
Food:
Breakfast: coffee 10c, toast 60c / 3gF, egg 90c, chia seeds 60c / 4gF, 16 oz water [220c / 7gF]
Lunch: coffee 10c, sunflower seeds 200c / 4gF, crisp 110c / 3gF, banana 105c / 3.1gF, 12 blackberries 36c / articjhoke3.6gF [461c / 13.7 gF]
16 oz water
Dinner: coffee 10c, vegetable mix 100c / 4gF, broccoli rice 35c / 2gF, crab cakes 340c / .4gF, bread 120c / 6gF, olive oil mayonnaise 50c, crisp 110c / 3gF, 16 oz water [765c / 15.4gF]
1446c / 36.1 gF
fffudge bar 80c, pretzels 110c / 1gF
1636 calories
37.1 g fiber
64 ounces of water
Exercise: stretching + weights + 7 push-ups, 10LL /30bp/40 sit-ups/5 sit-ups/15bp/15c/15r + 30 minutes stationary bike -600 calories
And thus ends week 12. Speaking of which, I just did a post exercise naked weigh in and . . .
Which, according to my online weight calculator, puts me just .6 pounds away from "overweight." It also puts me 41.4 pounds lighter than when I did my first weigh in 12 weeks ago.
As my friend Michael Bell used to say back in Basic Training at Ft. Dix, New Jersey (Late Fall, 1976), "I'm a bad motherfucker, boy!"
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